Another talk
Another "talk" from my mom, lasting for an hour during supper.
She talked and talked and talked, and I didn't even look at her.
The "conversation" started when I asked how much 家用 I should pay the family.
Then mom expanded the conversation, saying that it should be at least a few thousands (ooh, that's way lot more than I thought...) in order to contribute the family in return because they raised me up in this family (now I know why they see us as a long run investment); how I act impolitely to her; how sad she was after I returned; how I did not tell them my study plans, how poor people are unable to get happiness, etc, etc that are too much for writing. Last but not least, she did not forget to remind me of the importance of a degree, and getting a bf who can support the future family. Right on! She then complained about how her life was not lived fully because of the marriage trap, how her life was not getting enough quality becuase of her partner (both my dad and I laughed at that point), dreams and goals have to be achieved before marriage otherwise they won't be achieved forever, and marriage is only 感情寄託 (no wonder their marriage is so rotten).
Blah blah blah, blah blah blah, blah blah blah...... never ending......
One thing I wanna thanks God for is, I did not get mad or anything like that (even though I did not respond either), too much content mixed with both right and wrong concepts, this is a trap from Satan. I washed dishes as usual, went shower as usual, read a chapter of the book "Cleansing Programme" as devotion as usual. And went to bed as usual, with a peaceful heart.
She talked and talked and talked, and I didn't even look at her.
The "conversation" started when I asked how much 家用 I should pay the family.
Then mom expanded the conversation, saying that it should be at least a few thousands (ooh, that's way lot more than I thought...) in order to contribute the family in return because they raised me up in this family (now I know why they see us as a long run investment); how I act impolitely to her; how sad she was after I returned; how I did not tell them my study plans, how poor people are unable to get happiness, etc, etc that are too much for writing. Last but not least, she did not forget to remind me of the importance of a degree, and getting a bf who can support the future family. Right on! She then complained about how her life was not lived fully because of the marriage trap, how her life was not getting enough quality becuase of her partner (both my dad and I laughed at that point), dreams and goals have to be achieved before marriage otherwise they won't be achieved forever, and marriage is only 感情寄託 (no wonder their marriage is so rotten).
Blah blah blah, blah blah blah, blah blah blah...... never ending......
One thing I wanna thanks God for is, I did not get mad or anything like that (even though I did not respond either), too much content mixed with both right and wrong concepts, this is a trap from Satan. I washed dishes as usual, went shower as usual, read a chapter of the book "Cleansing Programme" as devotion as usual. And went to bed as usual, with a peaceful heart.
posted by JoviNa ^o^ at 11:12 AM
2 Comments:
Keep praying for your parents la ...
Sometimes I really don't know how to communicate my thoughts to my parents either.
oh Jovina
I cant imagine how bad the atmosphere in your place is.
And i start to see how they affect your emotion.
But i think you did a good job. At least you went back to God and sought for help and calm your heart.
I really understand when you have no choice but to live in this environment..
The only thing i can do is to pray for you
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